Ritual Dua - Amarah II

"Memarahi memang mudah jika kita mengikut kata hati dan nafsu, tetapi memahami kemarahan adalah tak mudah. Kau pernah cuba memahami kemarahan kau bila orang melanggar bahu kau? Kau pernah tanya diri kau sendiri? Akhir sekali, kau pernah marahkan diri sendiri? Kau faham kenapa?"

Ritual Satu - Amarah

"Langit benar-benar sudah marah. Aku faham. Marah lah, ini kan waktu untuk kau benar-benar marah. Aku faham benar. Kau seperti tidak mahu berehat mahupun menenangkan diri. Aku semakin faham dengan amarah kau. Terlalu banyak dosa untuk di cuci. Ya, akhir tahun adalah waktu untuk kau marah dan mencuci segala dosa yang di kumpul jauh di bawah sana. Aku faham dan kini aku akur. Kau memang benar-benar berhak untuk marah."

Opus Terakhir

"Semuanya terlalu kompleks sehingga aku jadi lemas. Hidup memang tak pernah diklasifikasikan sebagai mudah."

Opus Sembilan

"Kadangkala, aku memerlukan rehat yang panjang. Rehat dari memikirkan tentang perkara-perkara yang rumit. Tetapi, hidup aku sendiri sudah dikirakan agak rumit."

Opus Lapan

"Aku ingin menjerit; suaraku sudah habis, suara hatiku sudah habis, suara dalam kepalaku sudah habis. Tiada apa yang bisa aku jeritkan untuk ketika ini. Semuanya kosong ( )."

Opus Tujuh

"You have evolved from worm to man, but much within you is still worm. Once you were apes, yet even now man is more of an ape than any of the apes."

Thus Spoke Zarathustra (1885)

Opus Enam

"Ya, aku rindu mimpi-mimpi yang lalu. Aku memerlukan magis..."

Sonik Halwa Telinga

Perang Dunia Ketiga!!!

Opus Lima

"Cari lah jawapan tentang apakah perkara yang paling sukar untuk manusia lakukan"

Opus Empat

"Jarak antara kita tidak pernah berubah. Tembok penghalang di antara kita hanyalah sebuah ilusi yang lansung tidak pernah berwujud jasad. Bila tiba masa, aku harap kita akan bersatu"

Opus Tiga

"Langit sudah tidak menentu sekarang. Adakah langit sedang merusuh ke atas dosa-dosa kita?"

Opus Dua

"Terlalu banyak berfikir, menjadikan aku sorang yang pemalas"

Opus Satu

"Aku kembali untuk memulakan sesuatu yang baru."

(...))) (Episod 25)

"Jika agama adalah candu bagi manusia menurut Karl Marx, maka biarlah aku hanyut dalam kecanduan itu"

(...))) (Episod 24)

"Aku bukan dari kalangan jiwa-jiwa yang terluka tetapi aku di antara kalangan jiwa-jiwa yang telah mati"

(...))) (Episod 23)

"Suara hatiku memekik; hidup kau semakin kelam, suram dan kabur!"

(...))) (Episod 22)

I saw my Lord with the eye of my heart. He said, "Who are you?" I said, "I am You." You are He Who fills all place But place does not know where You are. In my subsistence is my annihilation; In my annihilation, I remain You. - Mansur Al-Hallaj

Idea!

kosoooooooooooooooooooooooooonnggggggggggggg.............

(...))) (Episod 21)

"Aku lansung berasa tidak selesa"

(...))) (Episod 20)

"Kesunyian itu bukan lah musuh ku yang abadi. Kesunyian adalah teman ku yang sentiasa setia bersama ku sehingga saat-saat terakhir ku. Kesunyian itu ibarat darah yang mengalir di setiap pembuluh darah ku. Masa kan aku harus berpisah dengan nya."

Penghargaan!

"Terima Kasih untuk hasil kerja yang akan di hargai selagi blog ini bernafas"

(...))) (Episod 19)

"Khas untuk pemuja malam-malam yang tenang; semoga kalian sentiasa berasa damai."

(...))) (Episod 18)

"Tidak ada tempat di dunia ini di mana penderitaan dan kengerian bisa dilenyapkan; tapi kau bisa melakukan satu hal untuk meringankan takdir ini, yaitu menghormati keheningan." -- Robert Louis Stevenson

(...))) (Episod 17)

"Walau kita lari kemana sahaja, menyuruk di mana sahaja atau cuba untuk melawan, ia tetap akan datang tepat pada waktunya; tidak lambat atau tidak cepat."

(...))) (Episod 16)

Akhirnya...

"Akhirnya penangan terakhir dari mereka sudah muncul. Aku masih sabar, sabar menantikan waktu yang tepat untuk memilikinya"

...

Kedatangan

"Dan aku menjadi gundah gulana kerana kedatangannya yang semakin hampir"

Crush All The Lies

Opus I

Przyzywam was na sabat wiedzm i demonow
Na orgie, na swieto ognia i sexu
Przyzywam was z czelusci piekielnych
Diably, strzygi i upiory, oto nasz dzien

Ogien plonie, sperma tryska, czarny sabat zaczac czas
Pijcie wino, bawcie sie, to nie dziewic czas
Diably tanczcie, strzygi wyjcie, chrystus umarl raz na zawsze
Kozly czarne, czlonki twarde, bog nie znaczy tutaj nic

Raz na zawsze
Raz na zawsze Szatan bedzie rzadzil swiatem

Ogien plonie, sperma tryska, Szatan jest wsrod nas
Wiatr rozwiewa dym znad ognisk, orgia bedzie wiecznie trwac
Diably tanczcie, strzygi wyjcie, to jest nasza noc
Jahve zdechl, jezus zdechl, Szatan rzadzi swiatem

(...))) (Episod 15)

"You cannot believe in God until you believe in yourself."

(...))) (Episod 14)

"...Dan aku tidak lagi berwujud jasad ku kerna yang tinggal hanyalah jiwa ku yang kabur"

(...))) (Episod 13)

"Hidup aku tiada istilah pangkat, darjat, kasta mahupun umur-isme. Semua sama, semua merasa."

(...))) (Episod 12)

"Esok-lusa aku yang masih kabur. Aku hanya mampu terus berjalan tanpa arah mencari cahaya."

Pagi Ahad

Pagi-pagi lagi aku sudah keletihan. Tapi hati aku tetap puas. Pagi Ahad yang selalunya menggembirakan aku.

Kau Memang Bijak

"Take me, I am the drug; take me, I am hallucinogenic."
Salvador Dali

(...))) (Episod 11)

"Jika kau adalah cermin bagi dirinya, maka aku adalah doppelganger bagi dirimu"

Life....

Khanate - No Joy
...and there it went
please please no face no breathe no breathe
please don't breathe no no joy no joy no joy no joy please
eat that smile right off a face your face
no joy
only only eat stuff that grin down down your neck
no more eat no more breathe
breathe don't breathe please don't breathe
no joy precious joy no joy
eat that smile right off a face your face
no joy only only eat stuff that grin down down your neck

(...))) (Episod 10)

"Roda kehidupan; roda derita"

(...))) (Episod 09)

"Kita selalu di hidangkan dengan pelbagai pilihan. Gunakan mata akal mu untuk membuat pilihan yang terbaik"

(...))) (Episod 08)

"Aku merenung jauh ke sana. Layak kah aku? Aku terlalu jalang."

Rest in Peace

"Yang pergi tetap tidak akan kembali untuk selama-lamanya. Kita hanya mampu untuk berdoa..."

Aku Rindu

"Di antara zarah-zarah dirimu, wujud garisan kecelaruan yang bertimpal-timpal"
~ Anony:mous

Sabda Mereka

"Saatnya kita akan sedar bahawa kesunyian itu adalah Tuhan"
~ Anonymous

Perjalanan Merentas Batas Masa

Neurosis - Aeon
Illumination bleeds fire
Karmic well of deceit
Blood will nourish
Your sense breeds disgust
Sickened flow
Cauterize my waste
Devoid spirit gone
Our universe will breed
Aeon - ravens descend
Freeze - your destiny
Breathes discord
Fall, obsidian tides
Will be nature's bane

(...))) (Episod 07)

Jauh di satu sudut hati, tersemai rasa ingin memberontak kepada-Nya. Walau hanya sekecil zarah, terasa ia seperti barah yang parah.

In Our Misanthropic Times

Loss - Cut Up, Depressed And Alone

Carving... my skin
Reveals... the face... of... tragedy

Better... to feel
The pain... fully
Than to drift
In the emptiness

Between nothing
And sadness

Cut up
Depressed
Alone

Wounds as deep (as any) burial
(And) sorrow deeper than any wound
I gave (myself)
Thicker than any scar
I left
For me
There is no hope

Left alone in here
For there is no escape
A life painted with blood (and loss)
The wrists to my freedom welcome razors edge

And these wounds of mine will never fucking heal
All that's left is loneliness, there's nothing left to feel

(...))) (Episod 06)

Semakin menuju senja, semakin kita jauh kehilangan arah. Waktu tidak akan berundur untuk kita menebus kesilapan lampau. Tidak ada erti kata henti untuk waktu, hanya kita yang semakin menjadi sisa waktu dan terus menghilang di tiup angin senja.

(...))) (Episod 05)

...when you look into the abyss the abyss looks back at you...

(...))) (Episod 04)

Semakin hari, semakin aku tidak berganjak

The visitations of The Great Old Ones

"In metallic stars the Old Ones visit this earth from time to time. And the Lore of the Elder Gods prevails not against this coming; for They walk not the earth in Their forbidden forms.

They visit the skies of the desert lands, high places and desolate regions of the earth and strike fear into the heart of the lonely traveller and all who see Their signs. Yet, no man shall divine Their dark purpose or behold Their countenances, for They travel with great swiftness upon the back of the very wind and tear the fabric of Time's web in Their fury."

"The Beast of Night shall foretell their coming."

STANZA III

The dream quest of unknown kadath

Misguided mortal you must
Seek your way through these mazes
Where all got lost.
Find release in yourself.
Won't you play to our rules
We shall prove you: dreams don't come true.

Flying in the early dawn
Pulled by powers so abhorrent.
No resistance ! You are drawn
by a mighty raging torrent.

Flying over barren landsode,
Cannot steer your winged horse,
Your intentions fade and slide
Into void against this force.

Flying to the Onyx castle
Where Gods are to be said.
into upper halls they hastle
You. - You, who lost all aid.

You must now alone stand trial:
Was in worth that you once did ?
wait until the facing dial
Tells verdicts beyond men's wit.

Ancient immortals, unworthy Gods.
A home forgotten beyond the stars.

Antara mimpi, mitos dan kebenaran

"I have seen much unmeant for mortal eyes in my wanderings beneath that dark and forgotten city. It is not the splendours of Irem that haunt my dreams with this madness, but another place, a place shrouded in utter silence; long unknown to man and shunned even by ghoul and nightgaunt. A stillness likened to millions of vanished years pressed with great heaviness upon my soul as I trod those labyrinths in terror, ever fearing that my footfalls might awaken the dread architects of this nameless region where the hand of time is bound and the wind does not whisper.

Great was my fear of this place, but greater was the strange sleep-like fascination that gripped my mind and guided my feet ever downwards through realms unknown. My lamp cast it's radiance upon basalt walls, revealing mighty pillars hewn surely by no human hand, where curiously stained obelisks engraved with frightful images and cryptic characters reared above me into the darkness. A passage sloped before me, I descended. For what seemed to be an eternity I descended rapt in contemplation of the grim icons that stretched endlessly on either hand, depicting the strange deeds of Those Great Ones born not of mortal womb. They had dwelt here and passed on, yet the walls of the edifice bore Their mark: vast likenesses of those terrible beings of yore carved beneath a firmament of unguessed asterisms.

Endlessly the way led downwards, ever downwards. The passage of time had fled from my mind, Hypnos and eternity held my soul.

How long, how far had I journeyed? I knew not. Then like one awaking from the dreams of Narcaeus my eyes beheld a door which barred my path. Their Sign was upon it, The Sign which I have seen within the tomb-caverns of Leng, amidst the pillars of Irem , and borne before the idols of cryptic Isnavor. I trembled as I beheld the dark inscriptions which covered the jaded stone writhe like a thousand hideous serpents, sometimes their reptilian forms darting toward each other as if in conflict, sometimes joining to form creatures of nauseous bulk once more to divide into a twisting host of black serpentine characters.

Before my eyes the door was rolled up as if it were a scroll and I gazed upon the void beyond, where amongst strange stars great darkling forms moved. Like the moaning of a great wind terrible voices assailed my ears with a cry of a thousand souls in torment. The forbidden names of Yog-Sothoth, Cthulhu, Nyarlathhotep and a hundred more seared my brain like venomous vitriol. Their minds entered my being and I learned of blasphemous things undreamt by mortal man and of a realm beyond our time and creation where the blind demon sultan Azathoth dwells within the pit of Chaos throughout the countless aeons of infinity.

Then with thunderous roar the stars whirled before me in a great coiling vortex and I was drawn into that nameless abyss like a leaf before the tempest . My screams of terror yielded to merciful oblivion and darkness engulfed me.

I awoke amidst the silent sands of the red desert to behold the great orb of the sun proclaiming the dawn. I arose, and turning to the North set my feet towards Damascus where I, Their scribe, must write my book. For beyond the Pillars of Hercules, dreaming crystals call."

(...))) (Episod 03)

Aku tidak pernah berfikir perihal masa depan. Aku hidup hanyalah untuk hari ini dan bukan semalam atau esok. Andai esok aku masih hidup, maka aku akan teruskan kehidupan ku hanya untuk esok. Dan andai aku mati esok, maka sampai di situ sajalah perjalanan hidup aku.

(...))) (Episod 02)

Terlalu memuja cahaya Mu

(...)))

Asunder - Twilight Amarathine

Nimbus precession
A looming tether
Rolling shadows
Billowing splendor
Empyrean expanse
Of arcane specter

Emblazoned horizon
The great central fire
Sunsets ardent skies
Of dying ember

Eidolon aglow
Heavenly resonant
Deathless, ethereal
Resounding descent

Solar passage
Far and wide
Reaching out
Fills the sky

Emblazoned horizon
Sunsets ardent skies
O majesty in motion
Sinking spectral sky
This burial dirge

Twilight amaranthine
Of aeons illuminant
Wreathed in mortal sorrow
Shadows fall to dusk
Lingering sunbeams
Splinter through trees
Shadows fall

O majesty in motion
Kneel before the crimson king
Host across the esquiline

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